General Chat

thanx for that mary i guess i have no patience :-)

Carole we really have to get you a manager, to tend to your needs, and keep you safe from your own actions LOL. Love you girl . . . .

Does anyone want some mint plants? In my enthusiasm it seems I have a rather large mint patch which is covering the gas meter. We have regular British mint, Canadian mint, Chocolate mint, orange mint, and pineapple mint. My Haitian friend/'adopted daughter' takes some to make tea, I make mint sauce and put a couple leaves of the choc mint in cocoa. Don't ask me why I needed so much!!!! Can' t get decent lamb here unless I visit the bank manager first LOL. Oh how I would relish some roast Welsh lamb. It seems so much more fatty here, and incredibly expensive.

Em comes back from Guide camp this morning, despite Sarah and Gareth, it has been SO much quieter without her non-stop input LOL.
Have a lovely day, we have sun shine, but not too hot today thus far.
Mary

Had an accident with a wax strip this morning. As I held a small piece of it in my teeth my hair got stuck to it. My hair dresser has just been to cut the sticky mess out haha :-D

Dizzi glad to see you, time to slay the dragons . . . I often think that friends may understand better than family as they are not as emotionally involved.

Welcome Kim - I have been on several different tablets over the years, also had childhood depression, currently on Citalopram, which is keeping me very stable. There should be NO shame in taking an anti-depresssant, we wouldn't think twice if the drug were needed for diabetes or epilepsy! One thing I like is that I can still experience emotions, highs and lows, almost "normal" LOL (whatever normal is). Don't feel controlled by the med, but rather in control myself. Mind you I still have some down days but they don't last as they used to. This time of year is good for me as I also have SADD and have some issues staying "up" in the winter.

Tinkers, don't expect too much of yourself, you are very early on the A/D path, your doc may still adjust the medication further or switch to one with a component for anxiety. or add a second drug, it takes some time to find the right drug or combo of drugs for you as an individual. praise yourself when you have a good day, recognise little successes, rather than looking at the broad picture just yet. Hope this helps.

I had an amazing time out last night. an absolutely spectacular meal with 3 sisters whom I have had as friends, since we emigrated from Wales to Canada at almost the same time. Needless to say we are all much more aged than we were then, but I've told them to feel free to continue aging without me, I am content as I am today!! Their middle sister is autistic and very challenged, she was having this time away to celebrate her recent 64th birthday. B;less her, she became so excited when a cake arrived with a sparkler on top,m squealed and clapped her hands over and over. My daughter Megan, who is also challenged but not as severely, has a great rapoport with the ladfy, so she came with me and altogether it was a lovely evening. then I have to drive home, late evening, from Buffalo,NY, a city I can lose myself in very easily, so I follewed the signs to Niagara Falls, where I can find the border crossing easily and we sailed through with no problems. Until we got back into Canada and twice I had an issue turning left, both times I missedf the lane, not sure if it was new night driving issue, my vision or tiredness. regardless we arrived home safely.

Today was a really good day for me, possibly a reflection from last night. I have spent almost the entire day in the garden puttering and weeding and renovating weedy flower beds, moving plants to different locations, and building a brick wall from some bricks a neighbour left behind when they moved away. My veggies are looking healthy, and at last are located where the dogs can't eat the tomatoes before I can pick them. LOL. We have had to move a lot around in the garden to make it more difficult for Gareth to climb the fence and escape - cannot have dustbins anywhere near a fence!!.
Now I am tired and heading to bed, hugs all round,
mary

Kim, no we are not all on citalopram. I am, some others are, some are on other tablets. Some choose no to use prescribed medicine. I came off my tablets a couple of years ago I had to go back on them. I don't know how I would have coped with my Dads illness and his passing last year. I now feel happy to take my tablets. If you would like to join us we often check in to reply.

Tinkers don't put yourself under the stress of rushing to do things. You really need to slow down, even if it means getting up a little earlier. Rushing causes stress stress causes panic attack. You are rushing to avoid the attacks, but putting yourself under stress. This in turn causes the attacks. Can you understand what I am saying?

Sharron I don't think panic situations are ever rational are they?

Generally I panic if I am under an unusual amount of pressure, even if it is self induced and deliberate.

I did A-levels in my thirties whilst working and dealing with everything else. Our public library has the reference section upstair and you have to walk round an unsupported balcony to get to it. I needed to do this regularly but it was one of the hardest things I had to deal with.Likewise,I was afraid to have a bath in case the bath went down through the floor with me in it.

Rational eh?

Anybody is welcome to come on this thread Kim, I am glad you are finding it useful.

thanks tinkers, this sight is amazing. I've been around people who think depression is something to be embarrassed about so not a lot of conversation or encouragement. I don't think some people understand how to deal with someone who is depressed either.

hi kim no u dont have to b on citalopram to join in

Do you have to be on citalopram to join this site. I have suffered clinical depression since I was a child. It was only in my late twenties after many attemps to self harm/suicide that I got diagnosed properly. Now I take a tablet every day and am so glad i can put those days behind me. I have tried to come off them at times thinking that I'm ok now. Has anyone ever gone off their tablets with success?

Dizzi, Sorry to hear you have more problems but how lovely to have such good friends. It is the old you can chose your friends but not your family isn't it? Maybe you have always put up a front of independence with your family so they think you can cope without them. We are always here and ready to listen to you, you know that.

carole thanx for that its not too bad at the mintue but i no i have to take things very easy and keep up with the slow breathing

stupid things like going upstairs can trigger of an attack or washing the dishes starts kickin of too so i no i have to do things in double the time to what i normally do things if that makes sense and it is starrting to frfustrate me as i cant do much without it kickin of an attack

Tinkers look at it this way.......you didn't have a set back, you have been doing very well and the big panic attacks haven't been happening as often as they used to. You have to give your mind lots of time to relearn what it used to know. You haven't always had theses attacks, and in the future with your teaching your brain, you will be rid of them. (I know this can happen, I used to suffer them). It was an attack that just popped up you might have more big ones, but you might not. Just let them happen, and when they do don't be frightened by them. They can not harm you. Think about what is happening to you as it happens. Breathe slowly compose yourself. You really have to give it time could be months, but the best advice is they can not hurt you, don't be frightened. xx


Dizzy sorry to hear you to have your dragons back. Do you still draw them? I think one of this threads main lines of help is the putting the problem down where you can see it and leave it. A bit like the old writing it and burry it in the ground! Also to know you are not alone with these sort of problems. They are persistant beggers aren't they. xxx

ann
ive made another appointment to c doctor on 27th of the month

HI
HAVNT BEEN ON HERE FOR SUCH A LONG TIME
BUT MY DRAGONS COME BACK,I KNOW WHATS CAUSING IT AND AT THE MOMENT I CANT DO MUCH ABOUT IT,
I HATE HAVING TO ASK FOLK FOR HELP ANDTHE PD HAS PROGRESS QUICKLY I CANT WALK FAR AND I HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF TO GO OUT AND WHEN IM ALONE WHICH IS MOST OF THE TIME ITS SCAREY,
I CANT DO SIMPLE THINGS I TOOK FOR GRANTED,
MY WEEKENDS AWAY ON THE TRAIN I GET TICKET A WEEK BEFORE RQ PASSENGER ASSISTANCE AT ALL THE STATIONS AND IF IT WASNT FOR MY FRIENDS THERE I COULDNT DO IT,THEY SEEM TO KNOW MOR OF MY CONDITION THAN MY FAMILLY
AND UNDERSTAND ME MORE,WITHOUT THEM I JUST
DONT KNOW WHAT I'D DO

HAD MY PD DRUGS CHANGED AND YESTERDAY
HAD TTO ALTER THE TIMES SO NOW USE MY MOBILE PHONE ALARM TO REMIND ME
6am 8 am 10 am 12 am 4 pm 6 pm 8 pm 10pm
BUT NOW ONLY 14 PILLS INSTEAD OFF 20

MY WORSE TIME IS AFTER MIDNIGHT,
I THINK TOO MIUCH,
I SLEEP WITH MUSIC PLAYING ALL NIGHT
ONLY WAY,,,
SORRY TO JUST DUMP THIS HERE BUT HELPS
TO PUT IT IN WORDS AND NOT JUST THOUGHTS
LOVE
DIZZ

Tinkers sorry to hear that, did anything particular spark it off? It is another week before you see the doctor again so maybe the tablets haven't quite kicked into your system yet. If you are no better when you go back he'll maybe adjust the dose again. Have you tried the Rescue Remedy?

mornin ladies
well ive had a mega set back had a huge panic attack last night felt like i went back to square one again i did eventually got to sleep and this mornin feelin fragile with my brsthin taki deep brath i am trin so hard but its so difficult as i have been feelin a little better grrrrr

Liz hope you have a lovely break away from home. Steve and I are on holiday too, but not going anywhere. Hope to get a few jobs done at home. Days out would be nice but the cost of petrol makes me think twice!

Colin!!! xx Nice to see you. Your winter been very cold? Our summer isn't very warm! The view of the ferry looks nice, wish the pictures were bigger on here. xxx

Mary enjoy your dinner out with friends. Fancy having to go through customs to go out for a meal haha xxx


Hazel hope your sons bp is soon brought down. He is in for some stressfull times with a two yr old and twins!

Forever hope your sons Dr's app goes well today xx

Hazel I am glad your son's bp is going down a bit, he will certainly have a lot more on his plate when the twins arrive so I hope he can get lots better before their birth. Happy 2nd birthday to the little on on Sunday, it's my spoilt nephew's 29th birthday on that day, 4 weeks to the day to my son's 29th birthday. Imagine all the years my parents waited for a granddaughter and two grandsons appeared in a month!

Can your son do some meditation or such to help him relax. Ask his doc or the pharmacist if Rescue Remedy will help when he starts to feel stressed out.

Lovely to see you on here Colin and sorry I haven't been in touch. I am really struggling to stay in contact with folk at the mo and am off for a week's hols from tomorrow, only locally but the coast and away from this place, and separate bedrooms too, luverly!

Mary, didn't know MiniM had concussion, how on earth did that happen?
Glad you can get more things done at the house and hope you sell the atv soon to pay for it all

love to everyone

Lizxxx